Yo its’ okay if you’re a white girl who likes Uggs and spray tans and pop music and instagramming your Starbucks. Don’t let tumblr make you think for one minute that liking things like that makes you inferior.
Same goes for if you’re a hipster trans mexican/japanese Pizza Underground enthusiast with a hello kitty neck tattoo.
If you’re not hurting anyone, you be you. There’s nothing wrong with that.
So fucking upset right now
I need to feel needed again.
I’m not happy. I mean sometimes I think I am and I even convince myself that it’s true but it’s not. Over this past year and a half I’ve been depressed and I feel like I have nobody and I can’t trust anyone. I spend almost every night crying myself to sleep and I’m sick of it. Sick of never being good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, you name it. I’ve been in a handful of relationships and you want to know how it ends each time? I get hurt, and it just adds to everything. The thing is, is that I love more than I’m loved. I have a really hard time letting people in and it comes off bitchy and careless. I act like I don’t care what people think, but honestly a lot of shit has got to me. It’s just that I’ve built my wall so high that I have to hide everything about myself nowadays. I think about dying more than I should, plan out different ways to do it so it doesn’t have much of an effect on the people that are close to me. And you. You don’t know what you do to me. congratulations because you’ve broken me and I don’t know what I’m going to do without you in my life anymore. You make me feel like complete shit, but I’m so in love with you that I can’t help but fall for you every time I see your face or just hear you speak. I know that our relationship is unhealthy, but I go against it my mind and follow my heart anyways. God, I’m so fucking stupid. You make me hate myself and tear myself down about everything. You’ve cheated and lied and some how I always find myself forgiving you. I’m just done. I can’t handle any of this any longer. I don’t have it in me.
Old conversations make me cry so much.